Stages of becoming a Proxy

GoulCaller wrote:

CrypticGrin wrote:

LoneWolf(X) wrote:

You can eventually break free possibly. Either that or he just stops using you or kills you. But I agree locking yourself up wont stop him, you'll end up finding yourself somewhere else.

Over time, your psyche breaks or you just submit to it. That period of time when you are struggling with your sanity is the worst. I was close to just wishing to disappear, but I realized that was foolish. Just accept it and do what you feel like you must do. That's the only way you can live a semi-normal life like this. It eventually becomes the new normal. You get used to it.

It also helps if you get a kick out of convincing others to believe. It's a rush!

I do get that feeling when i convince people that my experiences are real

Fun, isn't it?

GoulCaller wrote:

I have also experience most of these symptoms, but i want to become a proxy. Just to see what he's like up close. Are there any proxies on here?

i am here, and you don't want to be a proxy, trust me.

chaser wrote:

GoulCaller wrote:

I have also experience most of these symptoms, but i want to become a proxy. Just to see what he's like up close. Are there any proxies on here?

i am here, and you don't want to be a proxy, trust me.

Don't listen to them.
If they were truly a proxy, they would say no such thing.

Of course, it is possible that Chaser is just beginning to enter the first stages.
They are probably just a little scared.

Everyone is scared at first, that's when he gets close and you become more vulnerable to the sickness. Then you change.

LoneWolf(X) wrote:

Everyone is scared at first, that's when he gets close and you become more vulnerable to the sickness. Then you change.

Exactly.

CrypticGrin wrote:

chaser wrote:

GoulCaller wrote:

I have also experience most of these symptoms, but i want to become a proxy. Just to see what he's like up close. Are there any proxies on here?

i am here, and you don't want to be a proxy, trust me.

Don't listen to them.
If they were truly a proxy, they would say no such thing.

Of course, it is possible that Chaser is just beginning to enter the first stages.
They are probably just a little scared.

I've been a proxy for a while now, and I love it. It just might not be everybody's cup of tea.

chaser wrote:

CrypticGrin wrote:

chaser wrote:

GoulCaller wrote:

I have also experience most of these symptoms, but i want to become a proxy. Just to see what he's like up close. Are there any proxies on here?

i am here, and you don't want to be a proxy, trust me.

Don't listen to them.
If they were truly a proxy, they would say no such thing.

Of course, it is possible that Chaser is just beginning to enter the first stages.
They are probably just a little scared.

I've been a proxy for a while now, and I love it. It just might not be everybody's cup of tea.

That is very true. It isn't for the faint of heart.

CrypticGrin wrote:

chaser wrote:

CrypticGrin wrote:

chaser wrote:

GoulCaller wrote:

I have also experience most of these symptoms, but i want to become a proxy. Just to see what he's like up close. Are there any proxies on here?

i am here, and you don't want to be a proxy, trust me.

Don't listen to them.
If they were truly a proxy, they would say no such thing.

Of course, it is possible that Chaser is just beginning to enter the first stages.
They are probably just a little scared.

I've been a proxy for a while now, and I love it. It just might not be everybody's cup of tea.

That is very true. It isn't for the faint of heart.

exactly.

Parts of this are happening to me. But I have no recollection of what I did when I was in that state, and no evidence to even try and guess. I have done a lot of sleepwalking and such, woken up with injuries, etc. It plagues me wondering if I did anything.

Mesocyclonegirl wrote:

Parts of this are happening to me. But I have no recollection of what I did when I was in that state, and no evidence to even try and guess. I have done a lot of sleepwalking and such, woken up with injuries, etc. It plagues me wondering if I did anything.

If you can get a camcorder, place one in your room. You should be able to see yourself then.

Eventually my memories kind of came back to me, I remember sneaking out many times, I remember breaking a proxy's arm and hurting him. But many memories are not good at all.

Even I suffer from mild amnesia on occasion.

I think all of us do because of the sickness

LoneWolf(X) wrote:

I think all of us do because of the sickness

I agree.

I guessed that much.

The sickness seems to be starting for me again. I've started coughing more and when i do i get a pain in my chest that feels like its punctured or bleeding.

GoulCaller wrote:

The sickness seems to be starting for me again. I've started coughing more and when i do i get a pain in my chest that feels like its punctured or bleeding.

It sounds like you may have coughed so much, you've stretched a rib muscle. That can cause very intense chest pains.

No i just started to cough and within half an hour it started hurting.

@CrypticGrin I have my iPod, that may work until I get a proper video camera.

Whatever you do, always record everything that you're doing

When I started recording everything he gets closer. Or Im just paranoic?

I'm not sure.

Hey so I um might becoming a proxy because
1. I know he's real my parent have experienced him
2. I know he's there but when I look I won't see anything but feel him explain please?
3. Thursday at school we had reward and it was a magic show so this kid named Marcos keept screaming and acting stupid so when I got back to the classroom everyone said what's wrong so I told him I wanted to suffocate Marcos which I really wanted too
4. I've been researching him more now and he has been in my dreams
5. I get the Feeling to draw the operator symbol which I did and wrote "proxy"
Can you help me out if I'm becoming one?

You have slender sickness, the suffocating Marcos thing isn't relevant though that's just your tolerance of idiots really. But the sickness could eventually bring you into the proxy life and either you'll be good or you might die, I was once a proxy, and I might still be. I'm not sure. But you just need to watch your back, as for the sensing of him that is just what it is, you sense his presence. Most victims have that because he radiates Electro-magnetic frequencies and human minds can't get used to it basically and will mess with you.

Like I'm not that scared of him if I saw him then I'd actually be very happy and probably now and try to talk and I will randomly have my head hurt just now it did he has been appearing in my dreams what does that mean?
Oh and one more thing one night I woke up with static in my ears no lie I did all I heard was static then I blacked out and woke up the next morning I told my parents but they didn't help any idea?